Dear Alanis Morissette

Dear Alanis Morrisette

Today has been hard. As an empath all the energy and feelings swamping me haven’t been a manageable today. The heaviness of heart is so thick all around. The tears have been sitting like lead at the back of my eyes, refusing to fall. 

Where I am, we’re about to go into restrictions again for 6 more weeks. No contact with anyone other than those you live with and essential services. My little girl has only seen two of her friends in the last 4 months, it’s her birthday at the end of the month and I’m heartbroken to tell her we can’t even have her family visit her for her special day. 

I’ve just put your new album on while I’m writing my journal, a thought or lesson I write to my daughter or myself. I made it to Ablaze and the tears were able to fall. Thank you for this album. You’ve helped remind me that the world isn’t actually the shit storm of greed, blame and separation that it’s been feeling like lately. 

You don’t know me but thank you for allowing me to feel seen and not alone. From one empath to another, this is what I needed right now at this time. And I’m sure there will be many others too needing this. 

Love to you and your family
Ky xo

A reflection of 2019 and what’s ahead for 2020

I’ve been thinking about a lot of different things lately that impact my life. The type of work we do, and how we feel stuck and the lack of boundaries and planning that are keeping us in that stuck place. I’ve been thinking about the work we need to do, and the systems and processes we need to incorporate to get us unstuck. Running the numbers, we should be able to make a lot more money than we are, doing a lot less work than we are. Because I’m so tired. So we need to work smarter,  plan and systemise as much as we can. 

Look to the past for inspiration

Sometimes the mere act of indulging yourself an reading a book about an artist or someone who creatively inspires you can pull you through the funk. No matter how long it’s lasted. Today, sitting outside reading a book about Cecil Beaton left me feeling whole again.

It was enough to sweep away the demons that stopped me from getting my camera out. So, I took some observational or documentary style shots around home. I shot Miss 5 creating and imagining. I shot our front door and the loft stairs. With a wide angle lens, in black and white.

I’m really digging both the wide angle and monochrome right now. It takes me back to my roots in film. I’ve always had a thing for high contrast. I’m going to keep reading this book, and make it my mission for the next month to shoot at least twice a week, wide, black and white.

None of us have it figured out

You don’t. I don’t. None of us do.

We’re each on a different journey. And I think that self awareness and self love is the part that we’re trying to “figure out”. Because the further you are on that journey, the more you understand that you’ll never have it figured out.

Where you are on that journey can be the difference between chasing an impossible moving target of perfection, or accepting where you are right now. And loving yourself anyway. 

Through the window

The colours are there, through the window. 

The flowing moving air is there, through the window.

The chirping birds are there, through the window.

The scent of gumtrees is there, through the window.

New friends to meet are there, through the window.

Paths to explore are there, through the window.

Adventures to have are there, through the window.

Are you there, through the window?

Uninterrupted time

It can be difficult to create anything in the absence of uninterrupted time. 

Do whatever you need to find uninterrupted time so that you can create the things that make your soul sing. Be more organised, find a productivity/scheduling system that works, find a babysitter, get up early, go to bed late. 

Do what you need to do to get the uninterrupted time.